It has been long Since th last time I fell aslp feeling sad I have been living in happiness for this 1 mth plus That I forgot heaven wouldn't treat me so well I just don't know what's wrong! Why are you angry with yourself? Why what happened? Why must everything be like that? Tired I feel my heart getting so tired again

其实幸福真的可以好简单 只要看到你的笑容 我的嘴角也会不自觉地往上挂 虽然只是短短几个小时的相处 却让我同样地感觉到幸福无比 有点害怕，因为幸福往往点暂 不过我对她有信心 我们会手牵手地走完人生的道路 因为我认定你了！

wow.. i never ever thought that i will relive this blog. feels so good to be posting here. but i realised everytime i come here, i only have sad things to post! i smoked last night she's angry with me.. what should i do?):

I dun wish to put down everything
Our memories,I couldn't forget
And I ended up hurting ppl
I dint wan tt to happen
But I can't put u down
Rainy days makes me tink of our stuffs
Dancing,bball,everything
Is it rly a full stop to our story ?
I guess so bah
Both of us dun wanna face our painful past
Fate played us
We ended up this way
Well guess I just haf to stop tinking

Why am I so stupid
To be staring at th Elmo u gave me
And tearing
Memories flow back agn
Suffocating me
But things weren't th same anymore
最熟悉的陌生人
I rly missed us

Passed by th busstop
Thought of all th tears I shed when I left ur hse to walk to th bus stop
I'm rly hating r/s
Being alone may be tiring,but at least I can protect myself

Somewhere deep down,you're still there.
Been through too much that I'm unable to put u down
I thought I could
I tries to face you with a smile
And told myself a lot of times that I'm over you
But again and again
I failed myself
What should I do Aaron ?
I'm so envious of you
That you managed to get on your life
How about me??
Yeahh I know I did wrong
And I thought I could be over you and move on my life
But still,in my new relationships
You are all that I think about
I have become such a bitch
Because of our past
I'm tied down!
We have became the closest stranger
And it's killing me deep inside