cprog today,no productivity-_-
thn homed
had some med and slp
went astons with laopo agn!<3
thn back.
nose tap cnnt off
coughing
now plus stomach pain
FML-_-

well today had conclusion
frenship is more imptnt than relationship!!
well,frens are always thr
but sorry thr was a period of time i ps u guys
but yeah,u all th best!<3
I LOVE ALL OF YOU(:

today end sch went pizzahut with carmen dave weehan
thn came back cwp meet shawn go back rs
i miss dancing!<3
thn end le went to eat gelare with shawn and juniors
thn pei him buy stud
came back home with sis
and here i am blogging!
chi dance always haf politics
nvr changed a single bit-_-
I LOVE DANCING!<3

ytd start of sch was boring as ever
super no mood coz not feeling well-_-
craps in clss as usual.HAHA
met up with my sweetie to eat
went to astons AGAIN.
thn omg im having sore throat and cough
and i ate black pepper sauce with tasty rice=x
thn qq treated fries.(THANKS QQ!)
thn just ate th fries lo
coz reject like so rude

hmm today sore throat worsened-_-
dun lk th feeling of gonna get fever
but th temperature stil seems okay
ltr gg back rs see th juniors
hope they actually noe who i am =/
gg prepare for sch(:

omg.im sick th day right before sch starts-_-
wth,my nose is lk dropping liao lo
sore throat,cough,runny nose(cfm is chuan ran by gF de=x)
last day at work today
i sorta felt sad
used to working life
if nvr work,life will be so empty
perhaps i just needed to haf alot of plans to fill up my life
so tt i wun haf time to slow down my pace and feel so empty

i must get u out of my life
u're too dangerous
u invaded into such deep depth in my heart
i must close my doors
and nvr let u barge in agn..

went astons pei gF just now
thn met laopo thr to eat erm lunch?LOL
thn met sat night ppl go 136 eat zichar
and to 768 thr de playground play blindmice
worsen th bruise frm last wk
coz i hit on same spot.LOL
and back home(:

my heart is moved again-_-
why???
i srsly dunno why
heaven like to play me lk a fool
gif me same situation
gif me same feeling
made me do th same action
and i got th same response
thanks so much man!-_-

ytd went makan with laopo
thn saw lingmei and jiahui so makan tgt(:
thn after tt go occ play pool with dade benedict laopo mj kh
and once agn we see eden they all thr
thn went off earlier coz had to work):

today woke up super early in th morning to pei laopo go rebond!
thn bought our fav KOI<3
thn back and had ajisen and yakun egg<3
went to marsiling astons thr slack awhile
went to work agn-_-
thn i went back to marsiling astons agn
coz jenny wants some lid for th takeaway box
thn slack awhile thr and walked back

dun tink u're th only one with problems okay!
if u cnnt take jokes,dun ever joke with me anymore
im not someone whom u can take as chu qi tong
even if i am,i only allow certain ppl to do so,definitely NOT u!
u ASSHOLE

today needa work!
last 3rd day at work
dunno wad to do after i quit sia.
DIE!

i no longer know wad i wan anymore
my mind is in a whirl once agn
i'll try to do wad im supposed to do
which is to let go
coz perhaps we met at th wrong time

ytd went to shimin hse for mini gathering
thn me gF dade mummy ganma wk mj went to ajisen<3
thn slacked at cwp for hrs
and met laopo for gelare<3
bought a geek specs.
look forward to seeing me in it(:

i tot slping early can take my mind off everything..
but it still dint
failed attempts for 2 days
wad can i do??

ur images are popping up in my mind.
wad can i do to remove u??
today went to work.
as usual,BORING!
cnnt tahan sia.
boring place with no customers-_-

feeling rly lousy
hope i'll be fine soon
i hate this feeling
i hate my heart,coz it always brings me to places i shouldnt go
i hate myself for allowing all these to happen
i hate myself for not being able to control my feelings
i hate myself for everything!

looking at th rs juniors' photos at th dance camp..
i miss dance camp!
i miss th carefree life all th dancers had during dance camp!
i miss th times whr i had some dark spots to emo and think of stuffs!
i miss dancing with everyone thr!
i miss th scary jibengong!
i miss th community life!
i miss all that have happened in hk!
but i noe i cant go back to th past..
everything tt haf happened was very sweet memories to me
but they are afterall memories,which means when it pass it doesnt come back
i only can tink abt it,miss it,wish it can happen agn
but obviously i cant..
my jibengong everything no longer thr
so wad if i feel lk dancing?
i still cnnt go back...

hmm..dunno wad else to say..
nth much changed,still th same old situation-_-
today went out pool with dade and mj
thn came back to eat dinner with family to 'celebrate' fathers' day

oh well.
i noe i cant do it.
i must stop myself.
im gonna be fine.
im gonna forget u.

feel lk quitting my job.
coz mj nvr work le.and working at cp wasnt wad i wan at all.
'helping out for 1mth/2mth',srsly i dun tink thr's much truth in it.
well..mayb should just stop working and concentrate on my studies first bah
fan zheng also cnnt go back marsiling work,no pt staying thr work also.

i dunno how to stop myself..
i seemed to have lost control..

went out in th afternoon to play pool with dade,lucas,laopo<3
after tt went to meet gF,ggt,ah nice for dinner with laopo<3
came back find th guys agn
haha.me n laopo bought a small cupcake and put one candle gif him
sososo funny la.tiny winy bdae cake.

hmm..i noe i was th one who think too much
i will try not to talk to u anymore.
hope everything will return to how it was before..

my stomach feeling so sick..
had diarrhoea-__-
wad a nice start of th day
guess th rest of th day's nt gonna be nice

hmm..whole day was sorta in no mood to do anything
so watched abit YAB and went to slp
went cwp with mum to makan just nw
gt my 2nd piercing
hope i dun get any infection):
th piercing feeling was very shiok eh srsly
i noe i may sound abit psychotic
but srsly th feeling is so...shuang
th instant pain and it goes off.
perhaps i just needed some instant pain to shock myself and bring my mind off tt matter...

well,to speak th truth,im a little unhappy..
i dunno why i can fall so deep for u within such a short period of time.wtfish!
i must keep a dist!i cannot sms u or talk to u or see u anymore!
get out of my life pls!

im gonna keep a dist..rly gg to
i'll be alright de!

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to MEIXIA
Happy Birthday to me!

I LOVE MY CLIQUE<3
they celebrated my bdae at the chalet
gave me lotsa surprises!
im shocked,but im rly happy!
thanks everyone for everything!

special thanks to:
qi,zy,jh,buffy-poka dots top(:
da de,mummy,ganma,gF-my lovely bunny & pooh bag(:

you did it agn.
can u tell me why?
i told myself to trust u,but well u broke my trust-__-

hmm had a great day out with my laopo<3
got our couple ring,tink th shopkeeper must haf tot we rly is les-__-
went out to meet her at 11,thn went to town-->bugis-->amk
had our KOI<3!!and feeling so gd eh,coz i haf alot of zhan li ping(:
had dinner with peeps tonight at marsiling zichar!
after tt went pool!super taiko today la!
hmm after tt home-ed.
SPECIAL THANKS TO:
bernice,pecky,xinling,yanjun-->thanks lots for th necklace.love it lotsa<3
aaron-->thanks for th book and all th effort(:

im gonna flunk my 2 damn module-__-

wtfish.cfm haf to retest de.

siansiansian.hate exams!!!!

well.i've decided..

im gonna throw u out of my life!

not gonna sms u,not gonna try find chances to see u!

u,go away!

那一條牙膏 在對我傻笑 嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡 想鬧就鬧 好快樂少了人嘮叨
藍色的碗盤 多買了一套
我忘了沒人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就喜歡 有你的撒嬌
我想我能熬 但是至少要讓我知道 你好不好

我們的小狗 食量變好小 眼神裡常常顯得無聊
它習慣睡覺的床尾 少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

我在搞笑 卻在最后 眼淚拼命掉
你的離開 失去多少 我計算不了
忙完了一天 突然覺得又何必辛勞 對誰炫耀

還在搞笑 是否擁有 麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌 卻避不開 催淚的曲調
我徹夜胡鬧 希望聽到有人會提到 你好不好

my feeling for th moment...

why is everything happening agn??history repeating itself-__-

same timing,which is during exams period

same kinda person

too much similarities that i start to tink and ponder so much over it..

it's so scary..

insecure feelings coming in agn.that's th part when i hate th most!

being insecure over sth u can nvr figure it out-__-

omgomgomg.ltr having ct liao,now here i am thinking abt shit tt has no link with my exams!

wow...

ytd sneaked out to meet th guys.hahas.

i found it so relaxing to be outside th hse at night.breezing wind~

th hse is too suffocating,that's why i needed some fresh air outside.tired of being home.

hate my life,so no life,so boring

julian gg ns le.omg!his hair gonna kena cut away liao):

they made my night man!although they damn boliao,but well,at least i was out of home and was laughing.hahaha.i missed working with them.when can i be transferred back??

吃不能吃　睡不能睡
沒有了你　全都不對
我都學不會　把愛敷衍
用笑容來把眼淚催眠


哭不能哭　笑不能笑
人不像人　鬼不像鬼
朋友都說　這不過失戀
但我卻連呼吸都膽怯


能不能不愛了　因為愛太痛了
我痛得快死了　卻無法把你忘了
能不能不愛了　愛情它太痛了
我不能夠　不能夠不愛了

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐


如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

randomly feel lk posting this.

why i become so emo agn.rahh!

got back to th same situation i had lk 2yrs ago?

those who noe me well would haf known wad happened by nw bah..

im nt falling any deeper,coz im nt gonna let myself be hurt in any way.

hmm.sort of got this special feeling..but i noe cnnt,so im not gonna think of any more things...