went to sch study today.
ate maggie mee!(:
did some revision on eltech
and after that had yongtaufoo at makan place!(:

im sorry,if u noe wad i mean..
till today thn i noe
i was an idiot
u knew it so long time ago
i dint sense tt u were starting to avoid me
sucker who leaked tt out
u noe wad
u're getting ur karma soon!
FML

went out study at rp with ben dade mj
mj was late!so she treated drink!
new rule implemented for sat night
hmm thn me and ben was trying our best to tikam ans for web tutorial
had over 10 tries!
okay thn went to civics study with keave carmen galv laoda
and carmen went to meet fren
so me keave galv laoda went eat botak jones!
had some stupid talks
thn walk to cwp
they pei me wait bus!(:
thn home!

i wished i was in ur eyes
i noe im nt outstanding enough to be in ur eyes
im tired
im stressed
th moment i see u
i just tink abt how impossible we'll be
i wanted to smoke
but u dint allow me to
i need some way to relax and destress!

22082010
hmm stayed home for th morning
thn went down to play ball with couz and sis(:
and had dinner with family downstairs:D
thn went to meet carmen and felicia
drank at amk de some random playground
carmen drink until seh
as for me px and sis fetched me back from amk

i felt rly sad coz u dint care
how i hoped u would show me some concern
but well i tink too much
u nvr did,and nvr will..

23082010
went out eat mac breakfast with ganma and gF
studied in lib
saw wk shuli and their fren
thn we went to cwp walk abit
pasar malam walk abit
thn back!
met mj dade ben at my hse downstairs
gambled AGAIN
thn dabao back for erjie

woke up 10plus today
toured ard spore today!
>>>>>>bugis(romadeli!) bought a bag!!(:
>>>>>clarkequay(sticky!)
>>>>stadium(collect laopo's tix!)
>>>jap sch for tt summer festival thingy
>>tampines!!
>home!!
tired day out man!
but happy!!
coz i bought sth.WAHAHAHA

BUSY DAY TODAY!!
woke up at 10 plus today
went to gF hse eat spag(:
thn went dwn buy bbt with pangmei!!
omg she so so so cute can!!
thn slacked at her hse
intended to do some web tutorials
ended up pei laopo go polyclinic get mc
kelian de laopo must take care!!
thn went to 167
mj joined us(with a SUNFLOWER)
thn we trained down to clementi meet jh
cabbed to nus
TH PERFORMANCE WAS AWESOME!
MY JUNIORS WERE ALL AWESOME AS WELL!
ok ended and i came back with th juniors
sorry to ps jh and mj!
thn had supper at 800+
guys were as crappy as usual!
cabbed home

i didnt noe why
our memories suddenly flowed into my mind
kinda miss it somehow
suddenly i felt my mind being in a whirl
was it tt i still had feeling deep in my heart undiscovered?
or was it just wadever i dunno
mixed feelings..
a buried passion & maybe perhaps a buried feeling?

saw th dancers on th stage
and i hoped i was one of them
but back to reality,im nt a part of them
i can no longer be th one on th stage
i can only be a small small audience
passion buried deep in my heart
but fate just washes off th dust
and let me see it
and let me be helpless
coz i can do nth
i cant dance!
fact is i just cannot go back to dance!

wow.i managed to stay home today during th day!
okay la.coz abit not feeling well.
thn went running with gF and her biaojie
5km!!!
actually only ran 2/3 of it?
super tired
now starting to feel muscle pain liao
tml sure die!
thn home to bath
and out to meet dade mj ben
had pasar malam food
thn slack at playground and homed
dad gave me angbao
at first i tot he put wrong amt:x
coz he kiamsiap:P
but ya it was th right amt
thanks dad:D

disappointed in u
as my fren u should uds me
instead of attacking me
i nearly cried
i noe it's dumb if i rly cried out over this kinda thing
but u'll nvr imagine how i felt at tt moment

17082010
it's a miracle i stayed home th whole afternoon:x
initially wanted to go jogging with gF
but thanks to my shuai zui ba
thr was a heavy rain-_-
okay so chge of plan
meet laopo mj yyl dade ben yky eat at MEGA
thn went to wdl centre play pool with ben dade mj qq
and home sweet home

still in th messed-up mind stage):

initially wanted to get my dbs card
not sure if i can get it
so chge of plan
meet gF go get bernice's present!!
thn after tt meet galvan go keave's hse study
i hereby conclude,THEY ARE GAYS!!
okay thn studied liao went amk
thn they ate their dinner
i went to buy KOI<3
omg,super slow
they finish their dinner liao
plus bought their second dinner
i still haven get my koi-_-
thn back to gF hse eat lei cha!!(:
and bus-ed home

u make me ponder
srsly u do
i cant get my eyes off u
but i noe i'll nvr be th one in ur eyes
no pt being emo over nth
i'll be fine and bubbly once agn

14082010
met up with my gF mummy and bendan ganma
i love them!!
go to our usual ajisen
and they baked cookies for us!!
nice nice!!
thn went to sunplaza with erjie and frens to eat
and to my relg cls
thn back home

today woke up early to go liat tower haf veg buffet
OMG DIMSUM THR IS SUPER NICE!!
thn went to ssc daiso!!
and back to 167 wait for laopo
talking crap with yyl and yky
thn went to yky hse wii awhile
and home to change clothes
went eat loykee with them
zizhao joined
thn home!!

12082010
stuck home th whole afternoon
thn meet carmen leon galv study
so fun studying with them
soooo funny!!!
thn talked abt BGR as usual

memories flowed into my mind
everything have passed
but it seemed as if it was just ytd
well,i hate BGR
i srsly do..

today went to civics eat mac breakfast with mum and erjie
thn px came to join
thn went to dbs bank settle her loan de thing
and walked around cwp
meet gF awhile
and back home!
ltr gonna meet snm peeps
realised i missed out alot of fun..

cheerup meixia!

supposedly meeting everyone at busstop go clss
HOWEVER!
ALMOST EVERYONE WAS LATE!!
hmm thn eltech extra lesson
end le went makan place for lunch
elton is SUPER FUNNY TTM!!!
okay thn came back meet laopo dade ben mj go rp study
ended up playing with poker cards
and losing money T.T
thn meet gF buy cake and present for gF mummy
ate at 167 zi char
celebrated gF mummy bdae<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY gF MUMMY!!
I LOVE YOU!!

srsly..one of th reasons why i like her more than my own mum is coz she care for me even more than my mum do-_-
may sound ridic,but it's true
i talk to my mum and dun get any reply-_-
wtf.even someone who is so unrelated to me cares abt me

TO MY MUM:ALL YOU EVER DO IS TO DOUBT ME,CONTROL ME,HECK CARE ME WHEN I NEED CARE!
TO gF MUMMY:THANKYOU FOR TREATING ME SO WELL.RLY APPRECIATE IT!!

not gonna let myself think so much
coz it's nt gonna help
TML WILL BE BETTER
EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE
REST,MY BRAIN..!

missed out th fun at T3 on 08082010
so joined in th fun at sentosa with clique and snm peeps on 09082010!!
went to chalet awhile and cab back
today meet snm peeps go study awhile
thn meet classmates K agn!!<3
love gg thr with them,coz it's super fun!!

you haf th ability to make my heart skip a beat
you haf th ability to take my eyes off everything im looking at
how i hope time will stop
so that i can stay at tt moment for eternity...

went eating brunch with mj and wk at 306 thr
so funny
wk keep kena shoot
thn we pei him wait for bus
go visit laopo at 167 astons<3
thn home to slp awhile
out to meet snm peeps for dinner
went to centre play pool
keep lose):
back to 167
drank some beer
and walked back home with qq mj kkh
played with guinea pig<3
thn yupp i reach home

alarm rang at 6.15
but i continued to slp till 7=x
was late for my lesson
but well he dun care
so im still marked as present(:
thn prac was lk shit
totally dunno how do-_-
end sch le galvan help us chiong cprog
wahahaha,thanks to carmen!!
coz he ai wu ji wu!!
okays thn phone completely flat
so i meet gF come back
ate dinner at 167 with her
her mum came and SHOCKED me!-_-
okay thn went to cwp meet peeps for movie
SALT!!!
lousy ending sia
and watching th movie make me tou tong sia
okay end le jiu back home now

haix mind is in a whirl
hate it!
hope i dun need to tink
thinking is th last thing ever i wanna do in th world!

snw was soooo super funny!
okay end le went bugis meet joc go find gladys
had starbucks<3!
thn stayed at her granny's funeral for quite long
only left around 10plus
just reached home not long ago
sorry joc we talked abt ur sad stuff
hope wadever i said did cheer u up
took 960 back to wdl
half th ride was standing up
with ATs behind us talking and squeezing-_-
gonna rest soon
tml morning lesson
i dunno how i gonna submit th cprog lo srsly


i hope we can haf a future
somehow im nt confident of it
perhaps i'll try,just maybe i will..

hate thinking abt stuffs
coz it makes me emo
i dunno wad to do
my life is so messed up
hate feeling of being alone i guess..

04082010
compro test lk shit
cfm chop stamp fail
both cnnt work de
super damn sian la
thn end le went to eat at bukit timah market
and back to sch to do compro
well obviously is not productive
dun even noe how to start
thn back to gF hse take KOI<3
and meet erjie and px cut hair(:
wait very long sia!
okay thn slp

came sch early to do compro
hope can finish
ltr gg gladys' granny funeral
hope she's alright
cheerup my loved one!

hmm.was in a dilemma
in th end i realised tt afterall
i still lk u
no matter how hard i try
i still tink of u
wad should i do??

sch agn
test today!
came sch early to study
wasnt productive at all-_-
fcuk la,im gg to fail my test
damn sian de lo
both cprog cnnt work
i dun wanna repeat my module!
thn went to bukit timah market eat
and back to sch
gonna start on cprog soon
damn sian.hate life lk tt!

sch in th morning
celebrate bdae for beansprouts
thn alot ppl face kena choc!
thn cprog damn sian
eltech not any better
thn end le went to eat th cake
thn went clementi kbox!<3
asked for tiger beer
we finished 2jugs!
and wth i lost to stupid keavage
so angry!
he kan bu qi nv ren!!
nvm this time i seh
nxt time i make him seh!!
so bu gan yuan lose to him!!!
lucky after tt drank some soup and some ju hua
thn better now
if nt dun tink i can still be so awake now-_-
tml compro test
cfm chop stamp die!!!
damn damn sian la!!

sch as usual
our geekee keep kena disiao today
thn come back with gF
went her hse slack till 8
back home
and out agn at 9 to buy beansprout's cake
tml his bdae
and tml morning cake shop nvr open so early
so went to buy just nw
just reached home not long ago
life's boring ttm!

woke up early in th morning to eat breakfast with parents and sis<3
it's been such a long time since i haf done tt
i rly love it man
i noe i may sound stupid but ya i rly lk sitting down and eating breakfast with them
thn home prepared food for potluck
thn went astons gif laopo th food
and down to cine collect th 2 chabor's present
thn back to astons find laopo
went 883 buy our food
food i prepared was too cold
so i bought another packet to cook agn
thn went to qi's hse
makan makan
play twister AGAIN
leg cramp):
thn zy joined
we cut cake gif presents(:
thn tried to clear th cakes and all went home
I LOVE TODAY<3