Wished I know wad u're tinking.
Are u hiding urself too well,or have u rly gave up
Felt so weak,as if I went back to th past
When I was liking u butvu had a gf thn
Sometimes I rly do wonder,wad is making me hold on for so long ?
I cant take it agn
I dun wanna go back to th crybaby
Szehui said tt if u couldn't face me,it would be possible tt u still haven let go
But ytd..u talked to me so much
Does tt mean u rly let go alr?

Can u believe th scar on my hand is self inflicted ?
U told me we can only be frens
Saw him being emo coz of me
All th stress built up
My head is exploding
I can only do tt to not feel so pain
Pain transfer to physical pain..

When I ended my r/s,I told myself I dunwan to be in another
End up,it's still u tt I can't put down
How long more do I need before I can put u down?
U alr moved on,and what's th pt of me holding on to this?
I need to be strong but I can't
Perhaps it is my fault for leAving u and now I dun deserve anything
Just wondering ,is our photo still in ur room?
Th belt,th bottle of cranes hearts stars,th book?
Missed us,I rly do..
Actually we both dint change
We are still who we are
Only difference is ,I'm no longer impt to u..

I need to cry now
But I can't
I haf to look happy
I haf to look normal
I haf to put up strong front
I haf to act as if nth happen
I haf to act as if nth ever affects me
Tired,quite

Feeling alittle painful tt u actually moved on..
U're right
We haf become 2 different person after so long
We haf been chasing after each other for 4yrs
Time to face it and get over it
Guess today I wun haf any time to eat.
Hope I just faint and haf a gd rest.
How am I gonna remove u frm my heart when u haf long stayed in 4 yrs ago??
Perhaps I haf to be like u
Go through alot thn can I put down all I've been through
Guess ur life is happy now.
Mine should be as well
Maybe I just needed alittle more time
I wun bother u anymore
Coz I will live alone frm today on!

sorry im rly sorry for hurting u..
i noe im rly cruel..
i noe u did alot for me
i noe u changed alot for me
but it's all my fault..
i need to be single now
i need to be alone
i need to slowly let go of everything
i haf to let go of u and him
i tried so hard to let go of u but i cant
so i shouldnt be tgt with him coz it's fucking unfair
im a bitch i noe
to others out thr i guess im also one fucking bitch
but srsly i noe he dun deserve this kinda treatment
if im tgt with him,it will be even more unfair
i hope ending this early will minimise his pain
at least i wun feel so guilty bah

I'm gonna concentrate on liking him
He apologized to me and promised would change
I should gif both of us chance
Hope our probs are solved!!
And so we can last(:

i broke up with him
really tired of being tgt with someone who treats me just lk a normal fren
i txted him and told him we should be normal frens instead
he replied ok
wow,wad a way to end it,lk srsly
tired alr
giving myself a brk frm r/s
too scary alr
im nt gonna be so stupid to get myself pain
gonna try get u out of my mind
life will be plain and steady for me from today on
and filled with laughters with frens..

Fuck it man
Can u fucking get out of my mind??
I was okay th whole day today
Saw ur tweet and I broke down
Back to my old life
Looking at u frm th back
It's scary,really..
I dun wanna go back to my tearing past
I can't afford to be tt weak
I rly can't..

i realised im really pro..
me myself in bad mood
feeling sucky
still gg round ask ppl if they're okay
LOL @ myself
im still feeling weak
gonna put up a strong front..