hmm,my blog always haf to be so dead,if not so emo.
mon-wed,evening academy till very late,thn reach home,jiu dying tt kind.im so shocked im still alive now=x
thn thurs went eat with yiping gorgor they all at amk de beg zhu chao.lols.damn nice la can.
thn today,nth much happen.mel fell ytd and gt her knee dislocated,so we went to visit her just nw,and vandalised her cast.LOL.everyday focus as usual,bored si le.

and our class gt gays=xx
our auntie lucy(rolla)
and mr michelle.lols

sosososolong nvr blog liao..
hmm..think im nt gonna blog abt very happy stuffs today,reason is coz im not happy.okay,im being so stupid.
well,too many things happened,dunno where to start.things come and go too fast,so fast until im unable to accept wad's around me now.
why did thngs turn out this way??why are things happening in this way??was it my fault??i dunno..i really dunno..well,i haf to put o's before everything.i'll try,i really will..

好痛。。我失去了振作起来的勇气。我这次彻彻底底地失败了。我真的没你想象中那么坚强，那么勇敢。我真的好累，我不想站起来，也没能力这么做。我好想倒下去，好好地休息。我从来不知道，自己原来那么烂，连小小的挫折都经不起。我放不下，真的放不下。所以，我决定不要放下。我知道这条路可能会很难走，不过，这始终还是我自己选的。我相信我不会后悔的。

tears are flowing dry,losing my appetite these few days,ytd had 2 meals,today had dinner only,lols.nth else to say le.lols

today is CIP day.
we had our flag day at sembawang,with 4/8.
super tired,but think im happy coz i can help them.
thn,a lady even offered to gif me 2dollars to buy drinks,but i told her to donate to th disabled ppl we'll be helping.
after that,wanted to take shuttle bus to daiso,NO MORE SHUTTLE BUS frm wdl le.
so we cab dwn,thn took shuttle bus back to sembawang and train back.
i ate ban mian at SSC,thn i dun wan meat,tt person gimme my favourite...MUSHROOM!!!

hmm..nth much to blog abt..
anyway,sth to say..if anyone wanna make comments to let me improve,pls tell me personally ok(: thankyou in advance for allowing me to become a better person.so,jus tell me straight next time if i said or did something tt made anyone of u out there unhappy ok?hahas.end.

Results:
EL-18/25
EMATHS-18/25
jus lk tt for now(:

hmm..HAPPY BELATED CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE:)
well..new yr was sort of boring this yr..coz there's tons of homework and no hp to use-_-
sian lor..thn mahjong keep lose..
as for th performance on last thurs,29jan,things was not really gg well.was tired,plus no mood,plus cnnt dance really well lk before..haiix.maybe is my expectation for myself too high le bah..thn th following day went to sis fren de hse to play mahjong:) thn sat de supp lesson,went breakfast with ting,went back to sis fren de hse,coz my supp starts later.

今天是除夕！！！
whoots..CNY tml wor..hmm..but i haf ALOT of homework lor:( haiix..pardon me for my emo post la,but i realy feel this way wad.sometimes i also dunno wad im doing is right or wrong..aiya,dunno how to say also la..ytd went to town with ting,mj,qii..bought accessories..i really lk to buy accessories:)

anyway,this post is for someone unimptnt,and tt is,u really is a big threat to me,but so wad,it's nt gonna affect me in any way.hope nth disgusting comes out frm your mouth,or i'll despise you to th core.you dun need to know if im talking abt you alright,coz you're th one who did XX wrong,so you haf no right at all to say anything.

ok.sorry for not posting for so long..hmm..firstly,my MT O lvl gt an A2.and i tink i will be continuing bah..thn recently found out alot of stuffs la..but all i wanna say is dun ever trust anyone,coz in this world,you can only trust yourself,nobody else.you'd never know,one day your best fren will stab you frm behind and leave you bleeding there.so must be strong,and also,dun judge a book by its cover.coz mayb th person may look innocent or harmless,but wadever they do behind your back,you wun noe.and if you happen to noe,tt's too bad,coz u have to jus be sad there.so,everyone must tc of yourself alright?

tt damn hospital is super slow..wan me reach by 12.30..i only went into operating theatre at 4.15 lk tt?tt's so stupid..well..thn wake up..so happy to see gladys and aaron there..lols..hahas..thanks mum for waiting there with me..although she grumble alot..but still thanks alot..hmm..thanks to all tt were so concerned abt me,aaron gladys ting jy..if any others i 4gt..ps arh..hmm..haf to finish anti biotics..thn gt painkillers..haiix..terrible~

so sorry..so long no post..well..recently too many things happened..i also dunno how to say..everything went wrong and er..aiya i also dunno hw to say la..some problems cropped up..alot of changes also..so was trying my best to adapt to changes and..hahas..dunno wad to say also..hmm..nxt mon,1dec,gg for a day surgery to remove my ear de infection thingy..dun worry ppl..coz it's only a 30mins surgery..but i very kelian..sunday night after 12.30 jiu cannot eat liao..th surgery date de morning haf to 5.30 wake up and can only eat WHITE bread(with no jam) and milo..i ask my mummy can i dun eat she say cnnt:( thn er..after 9.30 can only drink plain water..super kelian can?oh well..th surgery is 12.30..till 1..thn wait for me wake up jiu can go home le i tink..so dun worry ppl..well..tink nt gonna post tml le..so..wait for me to post nxt wk bah?byebye<3

DUN EVER TRY TO BULLY MY BELOVED DEAR<33 HOR!
if u dare bully any of my beloved,我就跟你没完没了！！

so long no post..hahas..well..nth to post..
as usual:
lousy family
lousy dancing skills
lousy studies
lousy attitude
lousy temper

1. Do you have secrets?
yes of course..everyone has..

2. Would you fall in love with a boy older than you?
yes..i dun go for younger guys-_-

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
i go skool for dance,not class..

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
live happily ever after with my husband&kids?& my family

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend's stead?
nope..

6. If you have to choose one person between your boyfriend & best friend, who will you choose?
well..dunno..

7.What is the thing that you desire now?
new clothes(not trying to be materialistic ok)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
continue loving him lor?

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
him sending me home&pei me watch movie..lols

10. What makes you angry?
dunnos..

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
richer,more mature,maybe prettier?

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
him,family,my beloved darxx&darling

13. What is the most important thing in life?
love(:

14. What is more important? Family or Career?
family bah i guess..

15. What is your favourite colour?
orange(not coz it's th combi of yellow& red)

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
obviously..

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
not gonna happen..

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
if i can forgive,i will..coz hating someone is tiring..

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
iloveyou

20. 5 people I have tagged:
-ting-
-pecky-
-fengshan ganma-
-szehui mummy-
-gf-

woohoo..i kena scold again today..by my dad..everytime also scold..hahas..correct or not also scold..xi guan jiu hao..mayb u all think im crazy..coz im so happy tt my dad scold me-_-

woohoo~i hate my family..hahas..im BRAINLESS!!omg..im being scolded BRAINLESS!!im being said to be sinner again..im causing chaos in th hse!!my mum blames me for stressing her..oh well..i feel im so clvr..whoots!i hit th bull eye..i guessed th right things she wanted to say..omg..i so clvr:x(influenced by tingtheBHB) oh well..tml skool leh..getting back paper..will die..hahas..suan le la..very most retain jiu suan le..it will be so cool known to ppl im th only one in th family tt retains!omg..so cool~my parents will lose face until bang wall..hahahas!so funny~world's funniest ever(:

today was BAKING DAY!!
ting n pecky came..n we made a mess in kitchen..
thn when we take th foto..
we took almost more than 20 to get a perfect de..
aiya..thn super tired..
jus nw went downstairs find my pecky darxx..
so happy to live in same blk as her..
but maybe she dun think so?
coz i always fan her!hahas!
nth else..
for photos,pls refer to hoehuiting's blog(:

sianz..past few days de exams all suck lk hell..ss was lk shit..forgt abt riots de things..thn emaths p1 was okay..quite easy..emaths p2 so wasted..i spent too much time thinking..thn cant finish-_- cant finish those i dunno how to do de la..thn geog..hahas..sucks also..bio..alamak..confirm fail de..curve graph i can still draw best fit line-_- thn chem also dying i guess..hope phy paper n amaths will be better lor..

hmm..recently was thinking abt alot of stuffs la..figured out tt im really tired of alot of things..but still..figured out th problems but dint manage to figure out solutions..so..now of much use lor..haiix..well..think i concentrate in exams first lor..2 more days..thn i start thinking abt solutions to my problems(:

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JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt and takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

go ahead la..i haf a violent family..my dad threatens to spoil my com..thn my mum threatens to nt buy a new one..wad a gd couple..hahahas..sucks la..why th hell m i born in this family?so sucky can?they all jus vent their frustrations on me..sian la..my dad scold me for using com n chatting on fone..my grandma nags at me n remind me EVERYDAY!wth..i gt enough..if this continues..gonna get depression..im gonna slit my wrist in front of them..srry for being so emo..but i cant stand it!