其实幸福真的可以好简单 只要看到你的笑容 我的嘴角也会不自觉地往上挂 虽然只是短短几个小时的相处 却让我同样地感觉到幸福无比 有点害怕，因为幸福往往点暂 不过我对她有信心 我们会手牵手地走完人生的道路 因为我认定你了！

wow.. i never ever thought that i will relive this blog. feels so good to be posting here. but i realised everytime i come here, i only have sad things to post! i smoked last night she's angry with me.. what should i do?):

I dun wish to put down everything
Our memories,I couldn't forget
And I ended up hurting ppl
I dint wan tt to happen
But I can't put u down
Rainy days makes me tink of our stuffs
Dancing,bball,everything
Is it rly a full stop to our story ?
I guess so bah
Both of us dun wanna face our painful past
Fate played us
We ended up this way
Well guess I just haf to stop tinking

Why am I so stupid
To be staring at th Elmo u gave me
And tearing
Memories flow back agn
Suffocating me
But things weren't th same anymore
最熟悉的陌生人
I rly missed us

Passed by th busstop
Thought of all th tears I shed when I left ur hse to walk to th bus stop
I'm rly hating r/s
Being alone may be tiring,but at least I can protect myself

Somewhere deep down,you're still there.
Been through too much that I'm unable to put u down
I thought I could
I tries to face you with a smile
And told myself a lot of times that I'm over you
But again and again
I failed myself
What should I do Aaron ?
I'm so envious of you
That you managed to get on your life
How about me??
Yeahh I know I did wrong
And I thought I could be over you and move on my life
But still,in my new relationships
You are all that I think about
I have become such a bitch
Because of our past
I'm tied down!
We have became the closest stranger
And it's killing me deep inside

Wished I know wad u're tinking.
Are u hiding urself too well,or have u rly gave up
Felt so weak,as if I went back to th past
When I was liking u butvu had a gf thn
Sometimes I rly do wonder,wad is making me hold on for so long ?
I cant take it agn
I dun wanna go back to th crybaby
Szehui said tt if u couldn't face me,it would be possible tt u still haven let go
But ytd..u talked to me so much
Does tt mean u rly let go alr?

Can u believe th scar on my hand is self inflicted ?
U told me we can only be frens
Saw him being emo coz of me
All th stress built up
My head is exploding
I can only do tt to not feel so pain
Pain transfer to physical pain..

When I ended my r/s,I told myself I dunwan to be in another
End up,it's still u tt I can't put down
How long more do I need before I can put u down?
U alr moved on,and what's th pt of me holding on to this?
I need to be strong but I can't
Perhaps it is my fault for leAving u and now I dun deserve anything
Just wondering ,is our photo still in ur room?
Th belt,th bottle of cranes hearts stars,th book?
Missed us,I rly do..
Actually we both dint change
We are still who we are
Only difference is ,I'm no longer impt to u..

I need to cry now
But I can't
I haf to look happy
I haf to look normal
I haf to put up strong front
I haf to act as if nth happen
I haf to act as if nth ever affects me
Tired,quite

Feeling alittle painful tt u actually moved on..
U're right
We haf become 2 different person after so long
We haf been chasing after each other for 4yrs
Time to face it and get over it
Guess today I wun haf any time to eat.
Hope I just faint and haf a gd rest.
How am I gonna remove u frm my heart when u haf long stayed in 4 yrs ago??
Perhaps I haf to be like u
Go through alot thn can I put down all I've been through
Guess ur life is happy now.
Mine should be as well
Maybe I just needed alittle more time
I wun bother u anymore
Coz I will live alone frm today on!

sorry im rly sorry for hurting u..
i noe im rly cruel..
i noe u did alot for me
i noe u changed alot for me
but it's all my fault..
i need to be single now
i need to be alone
i need to slowly let go of everything
i haf to let go of u and him
i tried so hard to let go of u but i cant
so i shouldnt be tgt with him coz it's fucking unfair
im a bitch i noe
to others out thr i guess im also one fucking bitch
but srsly i noe he dun deserve this kinda treatment
if im tgt with him,it will be even more unfair
i hope ending this early will minimise his pain
at least i wun feel so guilty bah

I'm gonna concentrate on liking him
He apologized to me and promised would change
I should gif both of us chance
Hope our probs are solved!!
And so we can last(:

i broke up with him
really tired of being tgt with someone who treats me just lk a normal fren
i txted him and told him we should be normal frens instead
he replied ok
wow,wad a way to end it,lk srsly
tired alr
giving myself a brk frm r/s
too scary alr
im nt gonna be so stupid to get myself pain
gonna try get u out of my mind
life will be plain and steady for me from today on
and filled with laughters with frens..

Fuck it man
Can u fucking get out of my mind??
I was okay th whole day today
Saw ur tweet and I broke down
Back to my old life
Looking at u frm th back
It's scary,really..
I dun wanna go back to my tearing past
I can't afford to be tt weak
I rly can't..

i realised im really pro..
me myself in bad mood
feeling sucky
still gg round ask ppl if they're okay
LOL @ myself
im still feeling weak
gonna put up a strong front..

I will learn to be strong..
I'm nvr gonna be hurt by u agn
My heart is rly tired
Seems lk it's gonna stop beating..
After this post I'm nt gonna tink abt u anymore
I'm gg to move on my life
And let some other guy heal my wounds
I wun be stupid enough to hurt myself agn and agn
Gonna keep my tears away and be strong
Be prepared to see th armored me!

Result is out..th one left behind is me..
Perhaps it's ur fault,perhaps it's mine,but it's no longer impt
U're nt th only one who hate the situation
I'm tired of it as well
We kept on chasing after each other
End up hurting each other
Maybe u're right
We should be lk tt
4 yrs le,time rly flies
Time to put it down
I haf to learn
I shouldn't be an ostrich
I tot by nt tinking,it fades off
But th moment I see u,my wound tears
It bleeds and th cut gets deeper
Guess we're rly nt fated bah
Nobody else can miss each other as much as we do..

Wad should I do?
When I finally convinced myself on th right thing to do
U came to talk to me
My mind gt fucked up once again
I dunno how should I face u
Wad kind of feeling I should haf when I see u
I can't put u down
Need time..
Took me 3yrs and I failed terribly..

Haix why must fate let me see you in sch today?
I rly cnnt take it tt we haf to go pass each other lk acquaintance
I dunno wad to do
I can't forget us,I rly can't
But wad can I do?
We are nw in th situation when we cnnt do anything to salvage our situation
If we're fated we will be tgt de bah?