tired..freaking tired..

why do i wanna make myself so tired??

im packing everyday's time fully so tt i wun need to tink of anything.

zzz.control freaks,just wait and see.im gonna brk free frm ur control!

once agn,i got it from my parents.

got used to it,not th first time,im alr numb..

i wun ever cry coz of this dumb shit,coz it's not worth my tears.

so wad i cant stay late,so wad i cnnt stay over chalet for longer than 1 day.

when th time is ripe,i'll do EVERYTHING

haixhaixhaix.im gonna rant here agn.

once agn im so disappointed.i knew th ans,stil so fan jian go ask.

fcuk her la.when im 21,im gonna leave u!im gonna leave far far away,nvr gonna let u catch me back agn.im lk a bird in a cage trying to brk free.im gonna get so much potential energy that when i brk free.u're nvr ever gonna get me back.N-E-V-E-R E-V-E-R!

perhaps it's rly not tt bad to be transferred to checkpoint..

at least i dun need to see tt biased i/c.

zzz.since u kicked me to checkpoint,no pt i go back.

so now i either staying at checkpoint or quitting bah.

idiot sia.th moment i tink of him my blood boils.

thanks for making me so irritated.

thanks for not seeing my hardwork.

thanks for being so biased.

thanks for being so unappreciative.

u're so not respected by me!

i hate th family.i hate you i hate you.

slp late also kpkb

using com do homework u also kpkb,tot i playing.

wth la,im so f-ing tired and stressed up.

`heartbroken...

coz of th things u did,i was heartbroken

coz of th things u said,i was heartbroken

coz u kept all th troubles to urself,i was heartbroken

coz u dint tell me how sad u were,and u had to endure it urself,i was heartbroken

no matter wad u have done,im always gonna be here,coz u'll always gonna be my fren..

soooo many things happened..

ridic things happen on me,

example lk falling 2 consecutive days

weird ppl telling me weird stuff

tio gan by i/c

shortage money

wadever it is,life sucked a big time for me.

i dun uds eltech,dun uds engineering mechanics...

im failing,how?super damn stressed out-__-

boring.currently in NP.1 more hr before tutorials and lectures start agn-__-
so sad.recently alot sad things happen lo.so in order not to let any of these sad things happen on me,i'll stay single.i stand alone.i dun need tt so called 'family'.all i need is my frens.that's all.tt so called'family' is so sucky.cant find a better word to describe how lousy it is-__-

sian sian sian.was i right to work at astons?i find im quite happy working thr.although i noe i haf to be prepared tt my hole body is gonna be damn oily after work.haix.why must u all gif me burden?i work and earn for my own expenses,i dun find anything i did wrong.afterall,i used my sweat to earn money.i dunno la.fcuking irritated.a job tt supposedly,to them,tt doesnt suit me,but i rly feel happy working thr..

boringboringboring.i dunno if it was right,for me to volunteer to stay home to tc of my ah ma.i had only th last wk left to relax before sch starts,but i haf to stay home to tc her.haix.i felt bad to tink tt she caused me to lose my 1 whole wk's time to relax.but,she've been taking care of me since young.she've been thr for me when my mother wasnt.i should take care of her de.why am i feeling she's a burden somehow?hate myself.how can i do tt.

once agn,nth to do.today initially we gg celebrate ong yan shing's bdae,but he celebrating with his family,so in th end we only meeting for dinner.anw,HAPPY BDAE ONGYANSHING!i doubt he'll visit th blog,so forget it.haha.work haf benn extended till 10th.omg.sian.one more wk.but nvm,for th sake of $,i must persevere on!

seems lk only when im unhappy thn i'll post.so tired.i seem to hate wad's gg on around me,when thr shouldnt be anything wrong.ok.quite confusing,nvm.my life is without a goal.im just living my life coz i haf to,not coz i wan to.thanks to zaccheus,sort of brightened up my day coz he ask me go read FML.thanksthanks(: at least i still laughed,i managed to laugh,th real laugh i mean.pizza hut and gelare with sis and px ltr.whoots!

currently just reach my company.haix.omg.wad am i gonna do for th rest of my 8h??die.boring.nth to do!!wah piang.how i wish i can stay at home and slp=x haix,my grandma is currently still in hosp,and she has to go through another op.and her heartrate is super duper damn fast can!i tink even faster than mine.coz normal old ppl should be 60-70,her one 140+.omg,tt is even faster than a newborn baby lo.haix haix haix.howhowhow?????and thn so fast until 140+,thn suddenly drop down to 60+.haix.before she heals,i would haf alr 被累死，被吓死，担心死.):

haix haix haix.so stressed up recently.
so worried abt my grandma
so tired at work
so pissed at my lousy luck
wadever i do,it doesnt seem to go vry well..
so tired,feel lk stopping work..im so so tired everyday,my brain seem lk it's gonna explode anytime!having such a terrible headache,but i still haf to hang on, for 2 more wks.2 wk is so long,omg.maybe within th 2wks i'll pass away.LOL.zzz.sian la!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finally bought my lappy from IT fair ytd.woohoo.very happy eh.so shuang,dun need to coz of com quarrel with my sis agn.
hmm..tml my ah ma will be admitted into hospital,monday op.haix,last time rly pekcek coz she always try to look sick in front of us,wan us care for her.but now,she nt feeling well all keep to herself dun wanna say.make me so xin tong.she must be very scared bah,an 80 yr old having to go for an op.heart op somemore.haix.actually i dint wan her to go for th op.i rly tink it's very dangerous for an 80 yr old to go for heart op.im just so scared..

lalalala

currently in th company,nth to do-_-
omg.ytd my sis drive us back sia.but luckily im still here alive=xx
no la.actually she quite zai when she drive.
recently quite tired,coz everyday after work haf to go down to th hospital visit my ah ma.dun even noe when is her op lo.th doc damn slow,check this check tt,thn she haf to stay thr so long.
haix,although everytime always say she always nag,always 夺命追魂call us,she's still my ah ma afterall.hope she'll be alright.and hope her neighbour at th hospital is alright too.her op today,same op as my ah ma..

wahahaha.finally full stop to my big piles of doc.wah,i do until wanna faint liao lo.but well,now finish le=D
damn sian.suckers in company piss me off.
firstly this jakarta agent gl me-_-
thn this idiot 1st flr receptionist also att me.wth!
tt's why i say,bitches and bastards everywhr.
idotic ppl who ruin my day):

haix.i dint know i actually mind wad other ppl say.it's actually much more than i've expected.im fat..tt was wad i haf been told recently,almost everyday bah.so tired of it.i rly hate th life nw.to other ppl,mayb my life is vry gd bah,coz i gt th job.but well,working is not fun at all,srsly..living in a family who always laughs at u for being fat,th feeling also isnt vry nice.i dun rebutt doesnt mean im not hurt.i rebutt also doesnt mean i att.

today is such a happy day,noe why?coz th damn company tt dint pay me got onto the newspaper,wah,they damn damn famous now.im gonna make them even more famous.hahaha.everyone passing by look at this!-->http://www.tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,230413,00.html?

currently at my workplace enjoying my biscuit.omg.i finished my work.so fast so fast.hahas.okay.im crazy.still haf some filings to do,but i still haf 2hrs to go.so i man man lai bah.wahahahaha