hmm..let's see wad i can post abt..tuesday..met RUILING to take gladys de f&n file..wednesday..my GLADYS JIEJIE<3 came to wdl to take her f&n file..we chatted a small little while:)iloveher!she says when she sees us..she feel free of troubles..wahh..so happy to hear tt can..anw..haf i posted to thank my mandy gf and shimin for tt pooh bracelet?if no..thx lots to both of u..love lots lots:)thn thank my jiaen benben and yuting steady ganmeimei for th necklace..love lots lots too okay:)oh well..start skool le..still feeling stressed..somemore 08thjuly is O lvl de chi oral exam..OMG!!diediedie!!n im looking for dresses..hahas..u ppl will find it weird to c me in dress bah?coz normally i so cu lu..imagine u c me in dress n heels..omg..u'll b too shocked till u faint..hahas..finally nw weekend..thn can haf a gd rest..but there r tonnes of homework waiting for me..i c liao wan faint le..

& hor..

2more days to my first mth with yuting gf!

todae agn a slacking day..dint do much homework..i gave up on compo n public speaking..no inspirations to do it..thn afternoon do ondeh ondeh..hahas..failure:( alot had 'miscarriage'..n th filling leak out..omg..alamak..hahs..im lousy..nvm..要越战越勇..so i'll try nxt time agn..if gt improvement..i'll make for u ppl..but must wait long long..wait for me to perfect my ondeh ondeh:) n for SOMEONE's information..ondeh ondeh is nt indian cake..it is a type of chinese kueh ok!hahas..loves ondeh ondeh forever..so nice!aiya..thn tml starting skool liao..still quite stressed up bah..regretted getting into bio clss la..i wan poa..i dun wan bio..coz bio really suck-_-

i hate my family...i jus hate them..im tired of them..jus kena scolded by mum for nt preparing th stuffs needed fo making IC tml-_-she say she nt at home..thn i should prepare everything n stuff..dunno la..i noe im at fault..but they also somewhat haf fault bah?if they nt home..hw i gonna take th IC to go photocopy??

todae bored..thn do homework?hahs..thn chat with GLADYS JIEJIE<3!love her damn lots ok!thn slack n stuff..jiu go over aunt de hse c baby..tt baby is getting cuter n cuter can..ok..thn nw im chatting with 3 very crap ppl:
YUTING STEADY GANMEIMEI AKA CAREBEARYYY PREGNANT GF
JOCELENE SUPER CHIO BU MEIMEI
XINKAI CUTECUTE MEIMEI
lols..with u all there to make me laugh lk siao..thn jiu wun emo le..so dun wrry ok..ppl out there..dun wrry for me..coz im fine la..thn haiix..unhappy abt family once agn..jus talking abt my result jus nw lor..thn is lk i dint do very badly this time wad..thn they're lk saying if nxt time can stay this standard thn gd lor..i expected encouraging words lk u did very well this time..keep up th gd work n stuff..hahs..but guess i think too much le..they wun say this kinda stuff to me de..n my sis is lk saying i study combined sci..thn SHOULD get an A de-_-she say combined sci much easier than pure sci..should score well..thn i dunno la..they expect so much frm me..they dun understand th stress im gg through nw..th timetable all so packed..im gonna b very stressed up when skool reopens..y cant they jus try to put themselves into my shoes??y cant they jus try to understand me??hahs..but my meimeis..dun wrry..im alrite nw..coz u all r there for me!!!!

我累了!!

im so so so tired of everything..there is still a big pile of homework there waiting for me to finish..make me so stressed up..i hate skool lor..n tt sucky timetable..3 days of bio..im gonna faint..thn everyday de lesson all very packed lor..nt even one day for us to slack..im gonna haf a hard time nxt term..i realli feel lk stopping skool at times..frankly speaking..i go skool for dancing..nt for studying..thn haix..dance also sure haf stress de la..so tt one i'll skip..coz posted abt tt alot of times le..thn nt realli in gd mood lor..also dunno y..stupid brain..stupid mind..lalalas..but i'll b alrite soon..coz im able to cheer myself up:) hahas..so dun wrry ppl..

ok..todae wad to post abt leh..nth to post abt..slacking th whole day..sleep..thn do abit homework..life is getting more n more bored each day..im getting so tired of it everyday..BUT thnk god i haf these meimeis around me..hu wan me to post happy post..so i cnnt post emo post..nvm..nth abt todae bah..jus coz yuting steadyganmeimei wan me post..so here i m posting(:

srry ppl..so long no post..thx for all th bdae wishes ppl..
FIRSTLY,special thnks to my clique..thx for tt cake..i was realli touched..nearly cried..hahaz..n thx for tt pooh bear..i named it "晓维"..n i hugged it every nite!!!thx lots for buying my fav pooh for me!!lols..i noe it's stupid..nvm..thn thx for everything..u all made my day ok!
SECONDLY,my cute juniors..u all made me a stack of bdae wishes..hahaz..thx lots..im damn damn touched..all ask me dun emo..dun wrry..im fine..n i noe u all will always be there for me de..n tt chocolate is very nice(:
THIRDLY,my dearest HONEY<3 & GLADYS JIEJIE<3 & all other huikuan ppl..thx for th cake ok!very touched also..hahaz..n must gif credit to KEL GOR!!he ran to mobil to buy paper plate sia!!thx lots gor!!
As for others..if i 4gt to say ur name..im srry..haha..but still thx to everyone..im so so so touched..best bdae ever ok!

ok..hmm..as for todae..slacked whole day today..but had diarrhoea in th afternoon..alamak..i finish makan my food le jiu come out le..so gt makan=no makan..hahaz..ehh..think nth more le..i'll post pic thn(:

haiix..todae unhappy things happened..im th SINNER agn..wth can..my mum thinks im always bothering her abt me gg dance or gg out..sian la..gt enough le..cant i just dance?cant i just do something i love..since young..i dint haf this kinda interest or passion u call it..this is th first time i haf th feeling of wanting to realli dance lor..i dunno hw to explain th feeling la..aiyo..but they cant understand my feeling n thinking lor..i dunno is it me who failed to let them noe hw i tink..or is it them hu failed to understand me..i gt enough..these few days i've been feeling dwn..th onli thing tt can cheer me up is dance i guess..but u all dun let me go dance..sianz la..tired..can someone help me??can someone realli be there for me??can someone take care of me??can someone hug me tight n nvr let me go??can someone jus let me feel loved??jus let me feel my importance in th world..even if it is a little..i'll be contented...srry meimeis for my emo post agn..hahaz..

lalalas..fell dwn on my butt jus nw:x coz my aunt mop th floor..very slippery..thn i forgt..so i was walking n i fell dwn..my butt so pain:x thn hor..my hand gt bruise..purplish on th outside n brown on th inside..wakakaz..but my family dun even care..i fall dwn they still think is coz i jump around..i was jus walking very NORMALLY ok..thn i fell..thn aiya..IM NT STUPID!hahahaz..tonite mayb i gg malaysia..coz tml is my ah ma de death anniversary..but i lazy go sia..inside nth to do..nt tt close with cousins..so im still deciding whether to go anot lor..well..thx ppl out there..i felt better..whether u all noe wad happened or not..but u tried ur best to cheer me up..thx..

SPECIAL THANKS TO:
YUTING STEADY GAN MEIMEI AKA CAREBEARYYY PREGNANT GF
JOCELENE SUPER CHIOBU MEIMEI
PECKYONG DARXX
JIAYEE HONEY
KELVIN GORGOR
SHAWN DIDI
HUITING DARLINGG
JOANNE BOYFREN
*srry if i 4gt mention ur name*

i'll nvr forgt u..nvr ever..i tried my best to stop th tears frm coming out..but still..i failed..my heart feels so pain..i feel tt my heartbeat is gonna stop..i feel so sad..i cant find any word to explain hw im feeling nw..perhaps time can slowly heal my wound..im tired le..but still..i wasnt able to put down everything..things r happening jus too sudden..it is happening so fast..so fast until im unable to think and react properly..im tired le..realli tired le..can god pls take my life away?

todae went for tt stupid clss meeting..thn discuss dunno wad skid..dunno la..i wasnt in th mood to do anything todae lor..after come back thn play com..chat on fone..im realli tired..i wish there's a shoulder for me to lie on..i hope someone will hug me tight..let me b free of troubles..but there is no such ppl hu can do it..im feeling tired..jus hope my dying day gets nearer..so tt i can go to th nxt life..where i can meet someone hu can lend me shoulder..hu can hug me tight in his arms..srry my meimeis..my post is unhappy agn..but dunt wrry ok!!!

ok..todae nth to do..afternoon jy come my hse take tt purple thingy..hahaz..thn we chatted alot..we have nt been having hearty talks for a very long time..thn liddat lor..today im unhappy..very unhappy..extreme sadness..

ILOVE YUTING STEADY GAN MEIMEI AKA CAREBEARYYY JOCELENE CHIOBU MEIMEI & XINKAI

lalalas..here i m to post..if nt ltr my 2 meimeis is gonna scold me agn:( i kena my meimeis bully u noe..ppl out there..b my judge..both of them wan me to post everyday..sobsob..i kelian sia..gt myself 2 meimeis to BULLY me!Let me name them:yuting STEADY GANMEIMEI aka CAREBEARYYY..jocelene CHIOBU MEIMEI..wahh..they 2 always bully me de..c la..even rite all those things at my taggie!they bully me!sobsob:(

ok..let me start posting..todae bored bored bored..ytd nite drank a little red wine..thn todae headache..n thn jus nw went out to library to borrow love novels..thn hor..met my sis for dinner..went swensens..thn her stupid joker fren made us laugh till lk siao lor..she said she ate a banana(banana split) n 2 balls(choco busicuits)..stupid la..thn my sis go dig into her banana split..thn we say she digging th HOLE..if u r YELLOW enough..u should understand it..hahaz..so was crapping all th way..thn came back home n mahjong-ed..think i lose..coz my ah ma nt feeling well..thn we jus say wan play mahjong..hope she gt things to do..wun tink so much..hahaz..so i jus said..if i win u no need pay me money..so i onli win frm other 2 players la..thn she win i gif her money..she lose she no need pay me-_- hahaz..thn i jiu come on9 lor..thn kena bully by them..wakakaz..

To my meimeis:I'll try my best to blog EVERYDAY ok!!!

ok..same old thing happened la..kena laoshi scold agn lor..laoshi gif us th feeling tt we SHOULD noe where those ppl stand..n we SHOULD noe wad is th formation lk..n a lot of other 'we SHOULD noe'..haiix..we put in so much effort..but all we get back is laoshi's comment abt us dancing so lousy..say we nvr put in effort..my ankle hurt..my wrist hurt..my back hurt..but still..i tried my best to dance everything..but cant reach laoshi de expectation..im so physically n mentally tired can..physically coz im lk dancing almost every part th girls dance lor..i run in run out..hahaz..thn at first wanna go huikuan de..but in th end..mum dun let..so i gt so unhappy coz of both dance n parents..n i tink my dad dun lk me:( he always lk treat my sis they all so gd..thn treat me cold cold de..if nt jiu scold me..i dun c him doing tt to them la..n sometimes it is th same situation..same day..but his reaction was different..n i found out tt my dad will go crazy when he hear tt i gg dancing..lalala..dance is my interest..im nt gonna gif up..sometimes gt real tired of dance coz of some stuff..but still..i will continue to dance with all my heart..coz dance is my passion..dance is my interest..i love dance..

todae we do th 盾牌 after my bio lesson..we put in lotsa effort to do tt de hor..must take gd care of it kays ppl:)) hmm..todae laoshi was still screaming at us lk before..n i noe im lousy..lalala..thn i feel so sad..i m unable to get my mum's trust lor..hahaz..m i so nt worth her trust?i loved dance so much..n all my parents do is to STOP ME frm dancing..mayb me myself is at fault coz i dint do enough to make them trust me?but as my mum..u should noe hw much i love dance..but jus coz u're scared my dad starts nagging at u..n u dun allow me go dance..they jus dunno hw much i love dance la..mayb there will b someday when i m even willing to die in order to dance?aiya..suan le..troubles r accumulating..im getting more n more tired each day..
srry ppl..i post until so sad everytime..hope u all dun get affected by me kays?=D

todae's dance wasnt tt bad..although still kena scold by laoshi la..but hor..at least todae was better..think laoshi was in a gd mood bah..i realli hope all th chinese dancers can do ur best n buck up in ur jibengong..me myself haf super high expectations out of myself..i m trying my very best to achieve better result in dance..coz seriously i feel tt im still lousy..laoshi has high expectations of us de..haiix..i noe we realli disappointed laoshi greatly lor..for my standard hor..i tink laoshi still thinks im lousy..i must realli buck up..ppl out there..we jiayou tgt ok!

well..first thing..THX YUTING MEIMEI FOR UR POST~! i realli felt better after seeing it..okay..u ppl sure will ask wad happened to me..well..kena laoshi scold agn lor..she said we dint set a goal for ourselves..she tinks tt we r nt serious..me n jy hear till le thn cried..aiya..i tink quite alot noe we cried la..but we managed to stop it in time..hmm..i dunno if i m disappointed in laoshi or tt i m disappointed in myself..mayb i realli dint put in enough effort?or issit tt i put in real lot of effort..jus tt laoshi wasnt able to c it..haiix..hmm..

& hor..
wan say srry to this SOMEONE..i promise u it wun ever happen agn kays(:

lalala..todae was once agn a disappointing day..with laoshi screaming at me during dance-_- well..guess laoshi was ONCE AGAIN disappointed in me..mayb she jus had too high expectation on me bah..aiya..dunno..was so sad when kena scold by laoshi..well..dunno..must buck up le lor..my skills all suck lk hell..plus nw hurt my back..i doubt i can improve on my jibengong..but i'll try my best la..hmm..tml nite mayb haf to go huikuan after skool prac..my mum also dint say whether i can go anot..aiya dun care la..it is for 3rd aug de performance lai de..but i duno is wad performance..tml dunno can wake up anot..my lesson starts at 9!so early can..i wan slp lor..

gd nites ppl((:

ytd so so so bored..thn at nite went to aunt's hse..11++ come back..thn in th morning wake up to go bball with cousins..we've been laughing n laughing..suddenly feel tt my aiming suck can..thn jus nw aunt bought some ice-cream for us!coz she noe we feeling warm n tired..so..hehe..gt ice-cream makan..thn i very hardworking lor..they go rest..thn i keep try my shooting..thn nw im so so so tired..hmm..nxt wk's gonna b a bz wk..with lessons n dance..ahh..im gonna die!hahaz..nvm..coz...

ILOVEDANCE<33!!!

yo ppl..hahaz..ytd nite went to huikuan..im so so so stressed up when laoshi is teaching..hahaz..well..cher said i had improvements..i haf more confidence le(according to laoshi..but i dun tink is true la)..thn my gladys jiejie..we must jiayou tgt ok..ILOVEYOU GLADYSNG!hmm..thn came back home..lalala..todae is gonna b a boring day..no dance no nth..bored..im boredd!